thinking out loud

"If I had the cure for cancer, and I saw you needed my help, how could I not share it? I want you to have the same Gift I have. I don't want to control you and force it on you. I want you to experience the free gift just like I did. To feel the love from Him that I feel. I want our kids to know it. I don't want to teach them the opposite of what you believe. I want you all to get the same Gift that was given to me.

I can't make you choose it. I didn't even choose it. It was given to me, by someone who has the power to give it. It was supernatural. And it happened in a single moment. How else could I go from wondering how many billions of years old the planet is, to without a doubt believing it was created in 6 days? My mind cannot wrap itself around the hugeness that is the creation of the world. I cannot comprehend how He was able to do it all, so perfectly. But here we are. Because of Him. And we have been saved a spot there. By believing He died for us.

The joy I feel from knowing Him. The peace I feel within from being intimate with Him. The strength I feel from His arms wrapped around me. I want that for you. Forever. And my kids. Forever.

So, please don't think I am trying to keep you under my thumb. I am not really all that different besides wanting to be less sinful and wanting to live a life of purpose for Him. I'm still the same girl you fell in love with. I want the best for you. Eternally."