Today was emotional. But it was more than a a tummy ache and a mistake at work making me anxious about upsetting a boss. It was extreme heart-melting joy at something my husband did nice for me today. I am so blessed to have him in my life. As my friend. Looking out for me. It was a strong desire to really let the teller know it was alright she made a mistake. It was a struggle to look beyond the evil heart of an acquaintance and keep a positive heart. It was a push to say what I feel is right in my heart, not yeah uh-huh the ways of the world as one so highly speaks of something I know in my heart is wrong.
It was more of a tug on my heart to feel more, go deeper, look within. To what, I am not quite sure yet. Like He is pulling off the old layers, exposing the raw tree underneath. I am deeply rooted in Him, but always exposed to the ways of the world.
So I pray on it. And I ask my Saviour what He is trying to teach me. Unveil to me. My heart is anxious and excited at the same time, wondering what is around the corner. It feels a bit unsettling, but I know that is good. For He is working. And anything He wills is good.
I can't wait to follow what He lays out for me.
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. ~Romans 12:2